UPDATES!

I don't know why i'm gonna write this. But im way too bored i guess. LOL! Just an update to show i'm still alive. ^___^

I just ended my day in not so a very good way.
Im sorry for the mistakes done today..

And i dont know what to say. Sigh.

It have been 4 days since bro enlistment in NS.

Wish him all the best. :D

As for me, i have been working hard since my last off.

Although its only 2 days, it seems like 5 days already. Time pass real slow. :(

Feeling kinda sickly today. I dont know why. My throat is super drying, my eyes are tired.

I even coughed abit here and there today. Not so in a good mood today. 

Dear customers, FYI, please dont irritate me today. I haven even had lunch yet.

I seriously need more rest before i fall sick, as i told myself, NO MC for this month.

Im sucha good girl. :D Hehehe. 

Quarreled abit with baby today. Small matter. Im sorry love. Didn't mean it.

Anyway, whats for lunch today? thinking.. Mac or a proper meal?

Back to work first while slowly think.

One word to describe the feeling now, ANGRY !! Period.

As usual, work. Wasn't supposed to be late for work.

Ended up walked a little more and end up late to Ngee Ann City to open store.

Fingers burnt in the morning too. Due to my dumbness.

Yawnsssss ~ Im still tired, but very hungry now already.

Another 7 hours to go till end work. I cant wait for ending of work.

Can't reveal now. Hahahahaha.

Im back to work peeps. Wish me luck for today's sales.

Finally finally im done with the re-vamp of this blog.
It took me ages to finish it man. GOSH !!
Wait till baby looked at my blog again, sure shocked. LOLOLOL.

Anyway, im finally back from genting. which is quite sometime already.
Next trip coming up, BKK with Baby.. Hopfully with friends too.
Currently, busy with work like usual.
Although alot of stuffs happened. Its all over, i hope. *cross fingers*
Anyway.. will be joining mika's dad during August. Finally office job.
And double yeah's to work with Mika !!! :D

Friends life.., still the same. i wanna meet up again soon buddies. whole bunch of you !!
for a dinner or whatever.
Love life.., its still the same too. If i were to compare, its much better of cus.
and it seems daddy & bros liked him alot too. :D Thumbs up baby. Hehehehe.
Sometimes, you're super uber irritating, but still you got your ways to cheer me up.
Family wise.., bro is enlisting in NS soon. Less one companion at home.
But still, im looking forward to see him become a real man. :D

I've been truly very busy or lets say lazy lately.
So there is a lack of updates. Hahahaha ~

Life have been good i guess.
The new year have been going on well for me.
Im hyper and back to my cheery side again.
Its been like 4months plus i suppose that im attached again?
Hahahaha. Its a long long story.
Wish us all the best. Mika when's your turn?? :P

Anyway.. CNY had been so so for me.
But still ang baos collected quite a sum. ((:
Double the yeahs and double the smiles. <33

Upcoming programmes status:

1st. Genting trip with Buddies love, counting down to 26th March
2nd. BKK trip with Allan pipi & maybe Mika? Counting down to July
3rd. Taiwan trip with maybe Qianen? Pipi & Weijie still pending for Oct

Im so busy with trips. But just to add in before genting trip,
i have a wisdom tooth surgery to go for soon. This one counting down 7 days. :(
Its the after process im afraid of. I wonder whats the rate of pain.
Sigh. Be brave Bibi. Just bear the pain, not talking for days.
After pain, i sure use 10 cups of listerine to gurgle my mouth.
Eat as much as i can to gain back to my normal size.
Cus im sure im gonna be slimming down real fast.
Ewwwww~

The laziness to start updating.

Put it simple in words.

So much has happened during the past few many weeks.

Lets say over the months too.

I've learnt to open my eyes even bigger after falling down.

I learn to stand up after a great fall.

Please trust me this time.

I know who is nice & who is not.

I know what i want for a better future.

Enough of the relationships.

Now to work. Should i go & request or should i stay put at the same place?

Its very tempting i know.

Birthday was welly spent. (:

Greatest Birthday i ever spent can. Teehehehehe ~

24th Nov 09

spent on Massage, then meeting up with Mika Eunice, Y & KL.

It was equally as fun as it can be.

especially that memorable night.

i know such days wont happen again, i think.

anyway..

25th Nov 09

Met up with Tracy Wifey for lashes extension in BrowHaus.

Not that very good i have to say. Waste money. NB.

Then headed to Cedele for her job interview.

Wifey interview with my company went well. Happy for her.

Soon i'll be able to welcome her in Molton Brown. (:

After that tog with Wifey met up with Zwei & Co.

Dine in at Itacho @ ION.

Thanks for coming new met friends and of cus for the two cakes.

Sweet like crazy & funny like mad. LOL.

Headed to DBLO for the night.

I was high like crazy but happy like mad. LoveLove.

Jokes never left us. I even make alot of noise disturbing ppl after Club. WTH.

But it was funny can. Esp Alan. hahahaha. Im the biggest wife arent i? LOL.

Pictures all uploaded on all sides.

26th Nov 09

Happy 20th Birthday to myself. Im finally joining all of you in the 2 Club. (:

Met up with Mika Eunice & Weifeng for purchasing of BBQ food.

The rest of the buddies came to helped out after that. LOVE.

Thanks for the surprises and presents.

And of cus all the buddies whom turned up for the BBQ session.

And that bloody Xueli, YOU CAME TOO!! Meet up soon. LOVE ~

I had fun, so does all of you isnt it?

My side photos have all been uploaded.

left with some of Mika Eunice & Zoe sides. (:

Im happy at the same time alittle upset.

Yes, someone should know why.

But overall, im happy i've finally grow up. <33

I'm just back from meeting Mika love, Yiksian & K.L

Tired can ~ Luckily im off tomorrow.

Or else i sure cannot take it again. Hehehe.

I've been sleeping so late lately.

Think my body system is going to be down very soon.

1st, i need to get back my beauty sleep.

2nd, i need to adjust my body clock.

3rd, i need to have a very good long body massage.

The 3rd one is going to be complete by later at 2pm.

Appointment booked. Thanks to my dear Murni. (:

Yeah.. Massage like finally lor.

I seriously need to relieve my aching body.

And yes, Birthday coming soon. Im so excited can.

Wohooooooo ~

Tracy wifey going to give me a big surprise.

Buddies are all going to be there for me too. DOUBLE YEAH!!!

BrowHaus, should i go to do my eyelash?

I think maybe eyebrow better. (:

Many thanks to dear Mika, whom console me earlier on before she head out.

Also thanks to my dear buddies,

Bin wei, Wilfred & Wei Jie for making me smile after sometime.

They are the best buddies still ~

Im dont want it to happen this way.

But yes, im still suffering.

Hopefully i can walk thru myself on this long journey.

Im walking towards the exit ain't i?

When i know everything has broken into pieces,

even my new kitty mouse right side wing had broken into pieces,

i just sat there and cry by myself.

Seriously i dont know why but i still feel sad.

It really do marks the end of everything isn't it?

I can't bring anything back, neither do i want to anymore.

I really don't wish i end up in depression.

If my dear Mika can walk out thru all this pain,

so can i, right? Im strong i know. (:

For birthday celebration, i've booked everything.

The rest left are the invitations confirmation and im done ~

Does treating me like this satisfy you alot? :(

After sometime, i finally update blog.

Clockwise Left to Right: YuanZhi Body Wash, Blu Marquis Candela,

Pine Leg Soother, Hair HydraMasque, Eucalyptus & Ginger BodyScrub

Today's Pampering for myself : BODY SCRUB!!!!
Loveeeeeeeee~

Next pampering treat will be my hairmasque. (:

Finally had my haircut today.

my hair ends are so dry that it needs some trimming.

and now my fringe is short that i find it abit irritating. LOL

the other day at work,

ate with my dear partner Murni in the canteen.

a plate of rice which is super cheap can..

and a box of cakes.

Isn't it delicious? And the two of us finish everything.
seriously i think there is something wrong with me.

i've been eating alot these days can!!!! definitely not pregnant of cus. (:

Im off to watch my drama ~

After 2 busy busy days, im finally off for 2 days. tired ~

Boxes of stocks, returns & even price tags are killing me.

thanks to tracy wife for helping me. (:

My day spent :

Slacking in eunice office for hours.

Sleeping & printing photos in her office. LOL

Head to Ikea in Tampines straight after that.

Already very long never take long distance bus rides.

Bought home alot of loots ~

Cheap and nice & alot too. (:

My loots for the day:

1. A coffee table to put laptop & table light on top

2. Photo Frames (films alike design)

3. Black table light

4. Two bathing towels

Head over to his place to collect the rest of my stuffs.

when i saw little zel, i hugged her so tightly.

its been long since i last saw her.

after taking everything, talked to his mother.

after i left, Constance Jie told me his mom cried again. :(

im so very upset can. Before i left, i feel like hugging his mom.

But in order not to let her cry, i never did so. :(

didn't expect so many things to happen in one night.

But Constance Jie says i looked more happy now. hahahhaa.

and yes i am. im really happy of my life now.

off to bed soooooonn ~

this few days either its work or meeting friends.

slacking with best friends tog brings back memories.

many memories and jokes.

wilfred is so very funny just now.

he even played guitar inside 7-11 for me & the cashier lady.

i just cant stop laughing. LOL !!

and its off again for my coming morning. (:

sleeping in till late. chatting on the phone with friends.

it has never been that good.

at the least im leading a happy life right now.

ever since i came back from BKK.

the next coming up... ~

Genting trip with BFF's !!! YEAH !!!

its gonna be a fun one this time round at genting. (:

BKK TRIPP IS LOVEEEEEE!!!!!

Im back from BKK trip.
4days ago, we are so excited about our trip.
one blink of an eye, our 3days 2nights trip has ended. ):
before that, we told each other we are leaving the sad world with broken hearts.
and now, we dont even feel like coming back.
though it really heals our heart.
at the very least during these days, i clearly can see what i really want already.


We had extreme fun there. didnt get the chance to eat A&W though.
its shopping for one whole day.
that is what i called life. hahaha.
everything is cheap like dont know what. even cab fares are cheap like crazy.
we will proceed on with many photos to let them speak for me.
some photos are still on the process to uploading.
please be patient.
i'll just put a link to my facebook. (:

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Finally i've received my contact lenses!!!!

hehehehe~

been days since i last update my blog.

i've been trying to stand up on my own and with the help from my dear friends.

and when im standing up, he came and push me again.

thats when i fell really hard last night.

and yes.. i cried again. but i've decided my decision already.

i decided to give up totally this rs. be friends or not, let him decide that.

because the words are so hurtful, the yellings are painful too.

but i bear with it. i hold on strong trying to yell back & showed attitude as well.

and, i did it. i dont feel good at all.

but im gald i made up this decision with the help of Constance Jie.

even though he & i ended, you are still like a sister to me.

not forgetting dear Eunice & Weifeng hanging out at Yishun Damp.

chattings, songs changing, joking about.

im gald i have you two during my lowest point of time.

also never forgetting Ah hao & Tracy darling & her hubby.

for always being here entertaining my life.

Darling, you know what im waiting for.

and you see that im standing strong now too.

all because i wanted a better life. to move on smoothly.


the last but not least, i just wanna say goodbye to you Clement.
for the last, i'll call you this way.
baby, you have been the best during our happy days.
we gave each other a choice to move on and to give up this rs.
it has been a good past and i know i'll remember you forever.
be it the laughter's or the tears we shared.
its all over now. do lead your life well.
look after your family well too. do give a hand to your parents if they need you.
they aren't young anymore if you do realize that.
its time to grow up for you.
be a more sensible big boy. think for your own better future.
love yourself more. don't go back to what you did in the past before me.
the whole world is not about alcohol & girls only.
if someday you came to understand why i say all this,
its for your own good.
whether or not have i changed you during the past 1year4months, i dont know.
but i know we go thru alot but still ended this way is not what we really want.
and the song at the bottom is for you.
take good care & goodbye, love.

<<最幸福的事>>
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你撑着雨伞 借我那次
已经足够我 记得一辈子
我懂後来你 不是不坚持
爱情本来就 没万无一失

泪水离开了 你的手指
那不如让它 流在这信纸
我想女孩子 最贴心的是
让爱的人选 结束的方式

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事


可惜爱不是 童话故事
不能够永远 依赖着王子
才慢慢认识 只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心 为难你解释

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你 美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕 都微笑着静止

我最幸福的事 牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始 直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事 对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起的事 那天和你傻笑着认识 是最幸福的事

partyworld ktv last night with my Buddies.
i sang mostl sad songs, i nearly cried, i shouted with my voice.
but i had fun with you all.
thanks to mika, wf, bw & wj.

and i heard he got drunk last night,
i bet he had alot of fun.
also heard he's leaving tonight already.
our conversation has been really cold.
we dont even sound as friends.
and i somehow felt its drifting far far apart.

maybe its about time to stop myself from reminiscing the past.
its about time to move forward,
slowly one step a time.
goodbye my love.

it has ended. and i wished him all the best for his future.

Be more sensible for the next one.

give her the best. treasure her more.

dont take things for granted anymore.

never raised your hand to the next her too. ever.

give your best shot to keep the next her with you.

but you must remb never to make rush decision again.

becus you never know if she will come back again or not.

you understand?

i may never be back again.

but i'll remb the happiest times you gave.

forget the bad ones, remb the best ones. (:

i loved you once, and i did it many times.

but now, its time to stop.

so now, im healing myself.

healing that little shadow hiding behind my heart.

please do take care and move on for my sake.

take plenty of rest, prepare plenty of energy for your trip.

and if there is always a problem,

i'll try to still be there for you, if you ever need me, someday..

please be strong, dear "C.W"

words spread fast and yes, im all alone again.

thank you friends for caring.

i know i act like im strong but yet you all see that im actually weak.

tears are shedding, and its still shedding now.

but people, im really fine.

just dont remind me anymore. thanks (:

silent nights kills me.

flashbacks are really hurtful too.

another 25 more days to BKK trip with dear Eunice!!! Yeah!! (:

cant wait to fly there.

been cooping up at home for so long.

i feel like a rotten apple soon. haha.

but starting work tomorrow.

im more then excited to start my new job. (:

good luck and work hard J.bibi ~

sometimes.. i do wonder about how to go about and compare.

and finally i found a fruit which i can compare to.

at first, you're a fresh pinky red juicy apple.

the ones that everyone feel tempted to eat you up.

when times slowly goes by,

you turned into a soon rotten apple which lack of fresh color and no longer juicy.

which is being thrown away to aside and died of loneliness.

somehow i felt its a thought comparing my r/s to this apple.

i felt that im being thrown aside.

dont kissed as much, dont held hands even when we're out.

dont even mention making out.

i somehow felt like a rotten apple which is bored of looking at.

and someday i'll just die of loneliness. LOL (just joking abt this)

i only felt a one year r/s can brings out a totally not fresh lives of us.

and im beginning to start thinking..

its only the first year for god sake.

how are we going to go through to the next many years thats coming by?

i dont even wanna think abt "our" marriage anymore, let alone talk abt it.

somehow.. its just not right at all. or maybe i say i dont feel right afterall.

has the feelings tone down? or has the freshness of the r/s being washed down the drain?

i've tried so hard to come to this stage.

and all i've got is this outcome when i've finally reached this stage.

i do really wonder is it worth coming this far?

what am i trying so hard for?

i do think when i've finally felt the coldness there.

i thought i could do something different to make the attention turned to me.

but it just seems like.. i have to entertain myself for all the while?

i no longer understand how it works or how it should goes like.

it just felt so tasteless already.

thinking of all this makes me headache ah.

got to go collect my work bottoms from the tailor later.

and maybe meeting feng out for a talk.

im already suffocating.