After 2 busy busy days, im finally off for 2 days. tired ~

Boxes of stocks, returns & even price tags are killing me.

thanks to tracy wife for helping me. (:

My day spent :

Slacking in eunice office for hours.

Sleeping & printing photos in her office. LOL

Head to Ikea in Tampines straight after that.

Already very long never take long distance bus rides.

Bought home alot of loots ~

Cheap and nice & alot too. (:

My loots for the day:

1. A coffee table to put laptop & table light on top

2. Photo Frames (films alike design)

3. Black table light

4. Two bathing towels

Head over to his place to collect the rest of my stuffs.

when i saw little zel, i hugged her so tightly.

its been long since i last saw her.

after taking everything, talked to his mother.

after i left, Constance Jie told me his mom cried again. :(

im so very upset can. Before i left, i feel like hugging his mom.

But in order not to let her cry, i never did so. :(

didn't expect so many things to happen in one night.

But Constance Jie says i looked more happy now. hahahhaa.

and yes i am. im really happy of my life now.

off to bed soooooonn ~

this few days either its work or meeting friends.

slacking with best friends tog brings back memories.

many memories and jokes.

wilfred is so very funny just now.

he even played guitar inside 7-11 for me & the cashier lady.

i just cant stop laughing. LOL !!

and its off again for my coming morning. (:

sleeping in till late. chatting on the phone with friends.

it has never been that good.

at the least im leading a happy life right now.

ever since i came back from BKK.

the next coming up... ~

Genting trip with BFF's !!! YEAH !!!

its gonna be a fun one this time round at genting. (:

BKK TRIPP IS LOVEEEEEE!!!!!

Im back from BKK trip.
4days ago, we are so excited about our trip.
one blink of an eye, our 3days 2nights trip has ended. ):
before that, we told each other we are leaving the sad world with broken hearts.
and now, we dont even feel like coming back.
though it really heals our heart.
at the very least during these days, i clearly can see what i really want already.


We had extreme fun there. didnt get the chance to eat A&W though.
its shopping for one whole day.
that is what i called life. hahaha.
everything is cheap like dont know what. even cab fares are cheap like crazy.
we will proceed on with many photos to let them speak for me.
some photos are still on the process to uploading.
please be patient.
i'll just put a link to my facebook. (:

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Finally i've received my contact lenses!!!!

hehehehe~

been days since i last update my blog.

i've been trying to stand up on my own and with the help from my dear friends.

and when im standing up, he came and push me again.

thats when i fell really hard last night.

and yes.. i cried again. but i've decided my decision already.

i decided to give up totally this rs. be friends or not, let him decide that.

because the words are so hurtful, the yellings are painful too.

but i bear with it. i hold on strong trying to yell back & showed attitude as well.

and, i did it. i dont feel good at all.

but im gald i made up this decision with the help of Constance Jie.

even though he & i ended, you are still like a sister to me.

not forgetting dear Eunice & Weifeng hanging out at Yishun Damp.

chattings, songs changing, joking about.

im gald i have you two during my lowest point of time.

also never forgetting Ah hao & Tracy darling & her hubby.

for always being here entertaining my life.

Darling, you know what im waiting for.

and you see that im standing strong now too.

all because i wanted a better life. to move on smoothly.


the last but not least, i just wanna say goodbye to you Clement.
for the last, i'll call you this way.
baby, you have been the best during our happy days.
we gave each other a choice to move on and to give up this rs.
it has been a good past and i know i'll remember you forever.
be it the laughter's or the tears we shared.
its all over now. do lead your life well.
look after your family well too. do give a hand to your parents if they need you.
they aren't young anymore if you do realize that.
its time to grow up for you.
be a more sensible big boy. think for your own better future.
love yourself more. don't go back to what you did in the past before me.
the whole world is not about alcohol & girls only.
if someday you came to understand why i say all this,
its for your own good.
whether or not have i changed you during the past 1year4months, i dont know.
but i know we go thru alot but still ended this way is not what we really want.
and the song at the bottom is for you.
take good care & goodbye, love.

<<最幸福的事>>
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你撑着雨伞 借我那次
已经足够我 记得一辈子
我懂後来你 不是不坚持
爱情本来就 没万无一失

泪水离开了 你的手指
那不如让它 流在这信纸
我想女孩子 最贴心的是
让爱的人选 结束的方式

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事


可惜爱不是 童话故事
不能够永远 依赖着王子
才慢慢认识 只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心 为难你解释

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你 美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕 都微笑着静止

我最幸福的事 牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始 直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事 对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起的事 那天和你傻笑着认识 是最幸福的事

partyworld ktv last night with my Buddies.
i sang mostl sad songs, i nearly cried, i shouted with my voice.
but i had fun with you all.
thanks to mika, wf, bw & wj.

and i heard he got drunk last night,
i bet he had alot of fun.
also heard he's leaving tonight already.
our conversation has been really cold.
we dont even sound as friends.
and i somehow felt its drifting far far apart.

maybe its about time to stop myself from reminiscing the past.
its about time to move forward,
slowly one step a time.
goodbye my love.

it has ended. and i wished him all the best for his future.

Be more sensible for the next one.

give her the best. treasure her more.

dont take things for granted anymore.

never raised your hand to the next her too. ever.

give your best shot to keep the next her with you.

but you must remb never to make rush decision again.

becus you never know if she will come back again or not.

you understand?

i may never be back again.

but i'll remb the happiest times you gave.

forget the bad ones, remb the best ones. (:

i loved you once, and i did it many times.

but now, its time to stop.

so now, im healing myself.

healing that little shadow hiding behind my heart.

please do take care and move on for my sake.

take plenty of rest, prepare plenty of energy for your trip.

and if there is always a problem,

i'll try to still be there for you, if you ever need me, someday..

please be strong, dear "C.W"

words spread fast and yes, im all alone again.

thank you friends for caring.

i know i act like im strong but yet you all see that im actually weak.

tears are shedding, and its still shedding now.

but people, im really fine.

just dont remind me anymore. thanks (:

silent nights kills me.

flashbacks are really hurtful too.

another 25 more days to BKK trip with dear Eunice!!! Yeah!! (:

cant wait to fly there.

been cooping up at home for so long.

i feel like a rotten apple soon. haha.

but starting work tomorrow.

im more then excited to start my new job. (:

good luck and work hard J.bibi ~

sometimes.. i do wonder about how to go about and compare.

and finally i found a fruit which i can compare to.

at first, you're a fresh pinky red juicy apple.

the ones that everyone feel tempted to eat you up.

when times slowly goes by,

you turned into a soon rotten apple which lack of fresh color and no longer juicy.

which is being thrown away to aside and died of loneliness.

somehow i felt its a thought comparing my r/s to this apple.

i felt that im being thrown aside.

dont kissed as much, dont held hands even when we're out.

dont even mention making out.

i somehow felt like a rotten apple which is bored of looking at.

and someday i'll just die of loneliness. LOL (just joking abt this)

i only felt a one year r/s can brings out a totally not fresh lives of us.

and im beginning to start thinking..

its only the first year for god sake.

how are we going to go through to the next many years thats coming by?

i dont even wanna think abt "our" marriage anymore, let alone talk abt it.

somehow.. its just not right at all. or maybe i say i dont feel right afterall.

has the feelings tone down? or has the freshness of the r/s being washed down the drain?

i've tried so hard to come to this stage.

and all i've got is this outcome when i've finally reached this stage.

i do really wonder is it worth coming this far?

what am i trying so hard for?

i do think when i've finally felt the coldness there.

i thought i could do something different to make the attention turned to me.

but it just seems like.. i have to entertain myself for all the while?

i no longer understand how it works or how it should goes like.

it just felt so tasteless already.

thinking of all this makes me headache ah.

got to go collect my work bottoms from the tailor later.

and maybe meeting feng out for a talk.

im already suffocating.

being neglecting my blog for some time already.

firstly, i found a job. YEAH!!

secondly, i got in for the job. DOUBLE YEAHS!!

and im going for training today. feeling very excited.

provided the anuties outside very noisy. esp the eat microphone one.

and so i woke up early.
Good Luck to me later..

19th Sept

celebrated weifeng 20th bday that day.

a present from Queens Couture by Eunice, BinWei, Waichun, Zoey & me.

our dear eunice got bird shit bad luck that day. LOL.

and we headed to Turf City for Steamboat.

we ate super alot. esp prawns. LOL

think about it now, i feel like vomitting. hahahaha.

after this, headed to car wash then to Damp to hang out.

chatted and catch up the old times.

theres laughter, shy-ness too. (:

but it was nice catching up.. miss those days.

the next is K singing. Yeah.. (:

22 Sept

catch up with Liu Jing & Hai Xia for some work search.

headed to town to look for Tracy.

and i bought a pair of heels for my work too.

from what i've checked, i have alot colored heels, but no black ones.

and black ones are usually sandals. zzz

had dinner tog after her work off.

looks like she's happy there. (:

we could always catch up during lunch. hehehe.

and im off to do my stuffs before preparing for training. tatas~

And i've quitted my job two days back.

crap place. NB!! work 11am-11pm. KILL people ah?

now at home shake leg for the time being.

relax awhile while sending resumes. (:

Shopping at Town with Tracy darling today.

my camera's dead before i went out.

and i cant find my charger. WTH!!

she said she got pimple too. very big. LOL.

meeting up at far east to fill up my timesheet.

waiting to get my money.

Head to Paragon to dine in at Sushi Tei. (:

Her treat for the day. Next time mine.

shopped for her baby clothes. baby clothes are so cute.

its so tempting that i feel like buying for little Zel.

Tracy bought super lots of stuffs for the day.

baby clothes, skincare from Laneige, shoes from Nine West, Chocs from Royce.

her paper bag even tore. so funny lor.

i bought Vivi Magazine, Chocs from Royce, 2 Tops from Mango.

and those heels killed me at the end of day.

but, im happy for the day with her & the stuffs i've got. (:

meet up soon darling ~~

its time to go home to shift even more of my stuffs back tomorrow.

i miss daddy. i must give him a treat since im so free these days.

and of cus, to meet up with my grandma, bro and sis to recontract lines.

Wednesday meet up Baby sis & little Zel.

Breakfast & company her for the day. So wont be so bored. (:

im off to surfing net now.. GoodNight and Bye.

i have been so lazy to blog these days.
anyway.. here i am, updating past few days outings.

recently:

1.caught Final Destination 4 with tracy darling, her hubby and her friends.
it was a crap show. as always, its predictable.

2.Dine in with AhKun & Eric at HK cafe for dinner/supper.

3.Crappy days at work as usual.

4.Bad stomach cramps caught with me a day ago at work till now. SUCKS!

Today Outing:

finally caught up with my dear cousin, Jason for lunch.
i told him about ah ma and he had tears in his eyes in Swensens!!! OMG.
but i nearly cried myself too. guess the both of us should go pay her a visit soon.
we chatted real lots. the feeling is so good catching up with a relative.
bought a dress too. hehehe.
he's gonna be my shopping partner the next time round too.
adding into my shopping mates list. (:at 5 plus, we parted our ways.
i head to Orchard Central to look for Tracy darling.
Bought her LongJohn for dinner. Helped her iron abit of clothes.
then that DAJIE come. damn it. and she stayed the whole day!!
so i called up BinWei for a movie. since he's bored too. LOL.
while waiting, its shopping trips for me again.
i bought sleepwear and 2pairs of underwear. LOL.
walking the whole level of Orchard Central. its so boring!!!!
so big yet nothing. lucky BinWei came fast.
So caught Blood Ties today.
another crappy show. not very nice. not very scary too. zz

photos of the day:

Cousin Jason and i (:


my shopping treats:



good nights!!