back to work in again.
commission still sucks.
i bet my pay for this month sucks too. LOL
but im still looking forward to my payday.
but its time to save, save & save.
will be spending on...
body art, hair extending, body care.
ohh.. not to forget my pretty Eunice too.
we will be off to having facials and hair treatments done tog.
then the gathering of my secondary school mates BBQ.
this one gonna be a fun one. no more restrictions.
all over 18 already. hahaha.

and abt the body art..
why care abt marriage? i still can flaunt my pretty back by then.
who cares what ppl think of me.
at least im myself and im happy by then. (=

its time to be off showering. time to meet baby.
love.

when i was told to love you,

you smashed all my hopes.

when i knew i could put at ease loving you,

i know something bounds to happen.

and you told me, "Im sorry for letting you cry"

i got a little soft but can i still put at ease loving you?

i really dont know.

you meant everything to me.

but im not going to follow the exact footsteps behind you again.

this is what i know.

but still, baby.. i love you.

ah ma passed away already.

sad for her. but at the same time..

i wished she go peacefully.

only family knows why we wished her to go soon.

it will be a heartpain for her even if she stays.

when tears are filled, pain comes in next.

will you ever stay true? i dont know.

i would wished i never knew you at all.

was it a mistake that i made?

you dont look thru our pictures.

but you look thru "their" pictures.

maybe im sensitive. maybe i am.

will we last? im really puzzled now.

i leave our footsteps to that.

not wanting to count any more footsteps.

i'll just let it fly when the wind comes.

i seriously need a shoulder now.

have been hanging out with dear eunice and bin wei these days.
i've got nothing better to do. kill time only lor.
baby cousin passed away. feels abit wasted. he's only 21.
missed baby much too.
work sucks. not much commission coming in yet.
they said wanna transfer me to Shangri-la for training and work.
to help out, as they need help there.
advantage is i get to earn more commission as there will be alot of hotel guests.
disadvantage, its far lah. orchard you know.
i dont even know how to get there. ppl there are as kind? i dont know. really.
but they should give me my transport fee at the very least.
i've got no choice, i think.
going out to meet up with baby soon.
and tonight he's gonna dota with eunice. kill me please.
if only lappy was here. i can watch my hk dramas. ewww.
and a Happy 10th Month to dearest baby love.


sometimes love seems far even when you're here.
the heart still feels lonely at bad times.
someday, i wished you know how i really feel.

and yes. im sick again. down with this really bad headache.
its killing inside my whole skull i think. LOL
off to see the doctor in awhile.
anyway, first day of work is nothing like usual.
but glad that i went to work yesterday and MC for today.
sucks lah me. ohh. and..
many thanks to baby for buying me 2 tops yesterday.
love him to bits. now we've got 3 same tops. LOL


and yes. how could i forget. the shopping trip last saturday.
shopping was boring. but with them around, they made me laugh alot.
baby bought a pair of shoe.. again. and i bought the Fancl Tense Up EX.
its my 4th time drinking it. tasty. (:
the 4 of us caught the movie 12 Rounds that day too.
its a must watch. very exciting for me. haha.
i got to go. byebye.

feeling pain & aches when i woke up in the morning yesterday.

feeling like the fever symptom is here.

like weak in the whole body.

i felt its my own fault, cus i slept really really late the past few days.

and when evening came, when chatting with eunice,

i took temperature and baby says i got slight fever ler.

so rest instead. didnt ate much though.

it was tough going thru the night.

it was really really cold. i had alot of dreams.

my body is stiff like dont know what.

i felt pain all over man. its killing me.

i woke up like every hour lor. which is very killing for me ):

when baby woke up in the morning, he touch my body.

i guess he felt its super hot.

i cant feel anything. seriously. only feeling cold.

so when he ask am i having a fever still, i say dont know.

took once more temp. 39.1 degrees!!!!

rest till i woke up. no more fever.

but that bad feeling of the fever coming back still lingers on. fuck man!!

wish me get well soon. LOVE.

last minute meet up with dear Eunice.

had dinner at pasta mania.

caught a movie too.

the movie is so funny.

should catch it lah.

CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC

after that, went back home get PSP for baby.

and im HOME SWEET HOME.

now enjoying my mask. wohooo.

looking forward for tomorrow shopping.

nights everyone.

tmr shopping with gwen, her bf & mine.

i hope mine dont come out pattern.

otherwise, i'll be really pissed. zz

been reading forums lately again..

and msn-ing. bi went back to his dota-ing again.

hate it, but have to bear with it.

using forums to keep me company lor.

lucky got bi sister to keep me company these few nights.

talking abt my rs with bi & forums topics. hahaha

think the both of us really got nothing better to do.

usually at night.

dont sleep nothing to do.. its thinking abt nonsensical stuffs again.

so i gotta keep myself occupied.

so fast.. im starting work soon. nevermind.

working is good. got $$

got $$ means can shop even more!!! (:

gotta go for medical check ups for work. sian. hate the long queues one leh.

and the long wait for the report. arghhh.

thinking back.. i've been with baby for 9months already.

3 more months to our 1st year.

abt 5 more months to him going away to australia for abt 3mths ):

yes. tell myself.. im gonna wait for him patiently.

keep myself occupied with work, shopping and life.

im going to enjoy my life to the fullest this 3 months when he is away.

hahaha. (:

LOVE, Jessica

been thinking.. should i?

should i do my full back?

its still so tempting to me. ewww!!

trying to get baby permission now.

i hope he agrees to it. (:

watching tv, doing exercise, and surfing net today.

im trying hard to lose those cellulites i have now.

so good luck to me. (: lovelove.

yesterday wasnt spent waiting endlessly for darling.

went over to bi sister place to take care of little zelene.

as she got to teach piano lessons later on.

we spent like..

watching barney, do coloring, and playing alphabets cards.

when bi sister played the piano,

a feeling suddenly came to me.

touching feeling. so touching that i feel like tears coming out of me.

LOL. but she played very well lah.
little zelene got alot of talents too.

she can color well. unlike other 2 years old kid.

she scribbles all. but, some parts she colored well.

i spent alomost my whole day there.

having dinner and chatting to bi sister when she's free. (:

till 9pm, its Home Sweet Home.

♥