finally the month of May is gone.
here comes month of June.
still waiting for pay to come. hoping they don't delay.
i need shopping badly.
not to forget my best partners, Eunice & Feng ♥♥
looking forward to dear Eunice b'day party.
i bet she hopes for the day to come fast too.
hahaha. soon the June babies of Eunice & Binwei is turning 20.
that's really fast. meanwhile, i'll enjoy my 19th youth to the max. (:
and 1st year anniversary with my dear boy is coming soon. =)

stuffs about the other day...

caught Night at the museum 2 with fat baby.
he seriously need to slim down alot. really.
everything keeps going in that mouth of his. tsktsk.

finally its off day again.

6 days more to pay day. (:
meet up with dear eunice for facial and shopping today.
budget shopping you hear me? LOL
im near to broke already lah.
next month worse. birthdays to attend, 1st year to celebrate.
all money money. #@&#^# hell. hahahaha.
shopping was great with eunice.
weifeng met up with us awhile and left after that.
its been a long time since i last seen him.
bought nothing much.
a present for little zelene, a pair of heels & a dress.
there's nothing much to buy.
but got tons of pictures. will upload soon after editing. (:
im off to bed soon. LOVE.

just a review..

sometimes i wish it was on some weekdays and some weekends.
i dont know if its me whom cant be contented,
or is it you or maybe just us?
sometimes i feel so confused.
i just really hope some answers will pop out right infront of me.
saves me from thinking and spinning.
they say can see that i really love you.
yea. they are right. but can you see that?
there are thousands of questions. but i can never finish asking it.
nah. who cares. love supposed to be complicated isn't it?
but the only thing i've just realized,
im not the happiest girl in the world.
sometimes, i wished.. i just wished i could let go of everything.
i just hope you will look me once in silence telling me you love me so too.

didnt report to work today.
have to use my sunday off to cover today. NB
all thanks to my stupid ankle. ):
got a sprain for nothing.
and i didnt even feel anything from the start till yesterday.
woke up with a sharp pain on my ankle.
hacking care, thought its just nothing..
went shopping & catch a movie with baby at Tampines.
caught X-men, bought a scarf and a shoe bag for bro birthday present.
headed home with baby after that.
the pain gets worse at night so baby decided to bring me to the doc if today still like that.
and who knows, this morning, i cant even stand properly!!
not even stand still. i cant even really drag my feet like yesterday.
): thats how i ended up not reporting to work.
im trying very best to go to work tomorrow.
unless the pain gets worse. i cant help.

seeing the chinese doctor just now really made baby laughed badly.
because i cant stand the pain and i ended up crying when the doctor just touched my leg only.
baby said im a PUSSY!!!!! cant even stand that little pain.
yet i can stand my tattoo pain. i am really crazy. haha.
everyone laughed when i started crying. haha.
they say lucky never put needle, or else i'll scream my head off. LOL
but thanks baby for being there to hold my hand tightly thru out,
and holding my hand up the cab,
and of cus piggy back me up and down the stairs till we get home. (:
Love him the best though he's nonsense to me sometimes. haha.

so im off to rest now.

im breaking down soon man!!
continuous working for 8 days kills me.
i nearly dont want turn up for work lor.
but finally off day is tomorrow.
and im meeting dear eunice for hair dye and extension.
i simply cant resist long hair.
i miss my long hair. not regretting that i cut my hair short.
but i want my long hair back. ewww. (: LOL
trying to take a PH off for baby to go shopping tog too.
and soon im going to bed.
im so dead tired lah. nighty.

back to work in again.
commission still sucks.
i bet my pay for this month sucks too. LOL
but im still looking forward to my payday.
but its time to save, save & save.
will be spending on...
body art, hair extending, body care.
ohh.. not to forget my pretty Eunice too.
we will be off to having facials and hair treatments done tog.
then the gathering of my secondary school mates BBQ.
this one gonna be a fun one. no more restrictions.
all over 18 already. hahaha.

and abt the body art..
why care abt marriage? i still can flaunt my pretty back by then.
who cares what ppl think of me.
at least im myself and im happy by then. (=

its time to be off showering. time to meet baby.
love.

when i was told to love you,

you smashed all my hopes.

when i knew i could put at ease loving you,

i know something bounds to happen.

and you told me, "Im sorry for letting you cry"

i got a little soft but can i still put at ease loving you?

i really dont know.

you meant everything to me.

but im not going to follow the exact footsteps behind you again.

this is what i know.

but still, baby.. i love you.

ah ma passed away already.

sad for her. but at the same time..

i wished she go peacefully.

only family knows why we wished her to go soon.

it will be a heartpain for her even if she stays.

when tears are filled, pain comes in next.

will you ever stay true? i dont know.

i would wished i never knew you at all.

was it a mistake that i made?

you dont look thru our pictures.

but you look thru "their" pictures.

maybe im sensitive. maybe i am.

will we last? im really puzzled now.

i leave our footsteps to that.

not wanting to count any more footsteps.

i'll just let it fly when the wind comes.

i seriously need a shoulder now.

have been hanging out with dear eunice and bin wei these days.
i've got nothing better to do. kill time only lor.
baby cousin passed away. feels abit wasted. he's only 21.
missed baby much too.
work sucks. not much commission coming in yet.
they said wanna transfer me to Shangri-la for training and work.
to help out, as they need help there.
advantage is i get to earn more commission as there will be alot of hotel guests.
disadvantage, its far lah. orchard you know.
i dont even know how to get there. ppl there are as kind? i dont know. really.
but they should give me my transport fee at the very least.
i've got no choice, i think.
going out to meet up with baby soon.
and tonight he's gonna dota with eunice. kill me please.
if only lappy was here. i can watch my hk dramas. ewww.
and a Happy 10th Month to dearest baby love.


sometimes love seems far even when you're here.
the heart still feels lonely at bad times.
someday, i wished you know how i really feel.

and yes. im sick again. down with this really bad headache.
its killing inside my whole skull i think. LOL
off to see the doctor in awhile.
anyway, first day of work is nothing like usual.
but glad that i went to work yesterday and MC for today.
sucks lah me. ohh. and..
many thanks to baby for buying me 2 tops yesterday.
love him to bits. now we've got 3 same tops. LOL


and yes. how could i forget. the shopping trip last saturday.
shopping was boring. but with them around, they made me laugh alot.
baby bought a pair of shoe.. again. and i bought the Fancl Tense Up EX.
its my 4th time drinking it. tasty. (:
the 4 of us caught the movie 12 Rounds that day too.
its a must watch. very exciting for me. haha.
i got to go. byebye.