Birthday was welly spent. (:

Greatest Birthday i ever spent can. Teehehehehe ~

24th Nov 09

spent on Massage, then meeting up with Mika Eunice, Y & KL.

It was equally as fun as it can be.

especially that memorable night.

i know such days wont happen again, i think.

anyway..

25th Nov 09

Met up with Tracy Wifey for lashes extension in BrowHaus.

Not that very good i have to say. Waste money. NB.

Then headed to Cedele for her job interview.

Wifey interview with my company went well. Happy for her.

Soon i'll be able to welcome her in Molton Brown. (:

After that tog with Wifey met up with Zwei & Co.

Dine in at Itacho @ ION.

Thanks for coming new met friends and of cus for the two cakes.

Sweet like crazy & funny like mad. LOL.

Headed to DBLO for the night.

I was high like crazy but happy like mad. LoveLove.

Jokes never left us. I even make alot of noise disturbing ppl after Club. WTH.

But it was funny can. Esp Alan. hahahaha. Im the biggest wife arent i? LOL.

Pictures all uploaded on all sides.

26th Nov 09

Happy 20th Birthday to myself. Im finally joining all of you in the 2 Club. (:

Met up with Mika Eunice & Weifeng for purchasing of BBQ food.

The rest of the buddies came to helped out after that. LOVE.

Thanks for the surprises and presents.

And of cus all the buddies whom turned up for the BBQ session.

And that bloody Xueli, YOU CAME TOO!! Meet up soon. LOVE ~

I had fun, so does all of you isnt it?

My side photos have all been uploaded.

left with some of Mika Eunice & Zoe sides. (:

Im happy at the same time alittle upset.

Yes, someone should know why.

But overall, im happy i've finally grow up. <33

I'm just back from meeting Mika love, Yiksian & K.L

Tired can ~ Luckily im off tomorrow.

Or else i sure cannot take it again. Hehehe.

I've been sleeping so late lately.

Think my body system is going to be down very soon.

1st, i need to get back my beauty sleep.

2nd, i need to adjust my body clock.

3rd, i need to have a very good long body massage.

The 3rd one is going to be complete by later at 2pm.

Appointment booked. Thanks to my dear Murni. (:

Yeah.. Massage like finally lor.

I seriously need to relieve my aching body.

And yes, Birthday coming soon. Im so excited can.

Wohooooooo ~

Tracy wifey going to give me a big surprise.

Buddies are all going to be there for me too. DOUBLE YEAH!!!

BrowHaus, should i go to do my eyelash?

I think maybe eyebrow better. (:

Many thanks to dear Mika, whom console me earlier on before she head out.

Also thanks to my dear buddies,

Bin wei, Wilfred & Wei Jie for making me smile after sometime.

They are the best buddies still ~

Im dont want it to happen this way.

But yes, im still suffering.

Hopefully i can walk thru myself on this long journey.

Im walking towards the exit ain't i?

When i know everything has broken into pieces,

even my new kitty mouse right side wing had broken into pieces,

i just sat there and cry by myself.

Seriously i dont know why but i still feel sad.

It really do marks the end of everything isn't it?

I can't bring anything back, neither do i want to anymore.

I really don't wish i end up in depression.

If my dear Mika can walk out thru all this pain,

so can i, right? Im strong i know. (:

For birthday celebration, i've booked everything.

The rest left are the invitations confirmation and im done ~

Does treating me like this satisfy you alot? :(

After sometime, i finally update blog.

Clockwise Left to Right: YuanZhi Body Wash, Blu Marquis Candela,

Pine Leg Soother, Hair HydraMasque, Eucalyptus & Ginger BodyScrub

Today's Pampering for myself : BODY SCRUB!!!!
Loveeeeeeeee~

Next pampering treat will be my hairmasque. (:

Finally had my haircut today.

my hair ends are so dry that it needs some trimming.

and now my fringe is short that i find it abit irritating. LOL

the other day at work,

ate with my dear partner Murni in the canteen.

a plate of rice which is super cheap can..

and a box of cakes.

Isn't it delicious? And the two of us finish everything.
seriously i think there is something wrong with me.

i've been eating alot these days can!!!! definitely not pregnant of cus. (:

Im off to watch my drama ~

After 2 busy busy days, im finally off for 2 days. tired ~

Boxes of stocks, returns & even price tags are killing me.

thanks to tracy wife for helping me. (:

My day spent :

Slacking in eunice office for hours.

Sleeping & printing photos in her office. LOL

Head to Ikea in Tampines straight after that.

Already very long never take long distance bus rides.

Bought home alot of loots ~

Cheap and nice & alot too. (:

My loots for the day:

1. A coffee table to put laptop & table light on top

2. Photo Frames (films alike design)

3. Black table light

4. Two bathing towels

Head over to his place to collect the rest of my stuffs.

when i saw little zel, i hugged her so tightly.

its been long since i last saw her.

after taking everything, talked to his mother.

after i left, Constance Jie told me his mom cried again. :(

im so very upset can. Before i left, i feel like hugging his mom.

But in order not to let her cry, i never did so. :(

didn't expect so many things to happen in one night.

But Constance Jie says i looked more happy now. hahahhaa.

and yes i am. im really happy of my life now.

off to bed soooooonn ~

this few days either its work or meeting friends.

slacking with best friends tog brings back memories.

many memories and jokes.

wilfred is so very funny just now.

he even played guitar inside 7-11 for me & the cashier lady.

i just cant stop laughing. LOL !!

and its off again for my coming morning. (:

sleeping in till late. chatting on the phone with friends.

it has never been that good.

at the least im leading a happy life right now.

ever since i came back from BKK.

the next coming up... ~

Genting trip with BFF's !!! YEAH !!!

its gonna be a fun one this time round at genting. (:

BKK TRIPP IS LOVEEEEEE!!!!!

Im back from BKK trip.
4days ago, we are so excited about our trip.
one blink of an eye, our 3days 2nights trip has ended. ):
before that, we told each other we are leaving the sad world with broken hearts.
and now, we dont even feel like coming back.
though it really heals our heart.
at the very least during these days, i clearly can see what i really want already.


We had extreme fun there. didnt get the chance to eat A&W though.
its shopping for one whole day.
that is what i called life. hahaha.
everything is cheap like dont know what. even cab fares are cheap like crazy.
we will proceed on with many photos to let them speak for me.
some photos are still on the process to uploading.
please be patient.
i'll just put a link to my facebook. (:

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http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=117600&id=533307374&ref=mf

Finally i've received my contact lenses!!!!

hehehehe~

been days since i last update my blog.

i've been trying to stand up on my own and with the help from my dear friends.

and when im standing up, he came and push me again.

thats when i fell really hard last night.

and yes.. i cried again. but i've decided my decision already.

i decided to give up totally this rs. be friends or not, let him decide that.

because the words are so hurtful, the yellings are painful too.

but i bear with it. i hold on strong trying to yell back & showed attitude as well.

and, i did it. i dont feel good at all.

but im gald i made up this decision with the help of Constance Jie.

even though he & i ended, you are still like a sister to me.

not forgetting dear Eunice & Weifeng hanging out at Yishun Damp.

chattings, songs changing, joking about.

im gald i have you two during my lowest point of time.

also never forgetting Ah hao & Tracy darling & her hubby.

for always being here entertaining my life.

Darling, you know what im waiting for.

and you see that im standing strong now too.

all because i wanted a better life. to move on smoothly.


the last but not least, i just wanna say goodbye to you Clement.
for the last, i'll call you this way.
baby, you have been the best during our happy days.
we gave each other a choice to move on and to give up this rs.
it has been a good past and i know i'll remember you forever.
be it the laughter's or the tears we shared.
its all over now. do lead your life well.
look after your family well too. do give a hand to your parents if they need you.
they aren't young anymore if you do realize that.
its time to grow up for you.
be a more sensible big boy. think for your own better future.
love yourself more. don't go back to what you did in the past before me.
the whole world is not about alcohol & girls only.
if someday you came to understand why i say all this,
its for your own good.
whether or not have i changed you during the past 1year4months, i dont know.
but i know we go thru alot but still ended this way is not what we really want.
and the song at the bottom is for you.
take good care & goodbye, love.

<<最幸福的事>>
<>

你撑着雨伞 借我那次
已经足够我 记得一辈子
我懂後来你 不是不坚持
爱情本来就 没万无一失

泪水离开了 你的手指
那不如让它 流在这信纸
我想女孩子 最贴心的是
让爱的人选 结束的方式

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事


可惜爱不是 童话故事
不能够永远 依赖着王子
才慢慢认识 只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心 为难你解释

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你 美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕 都微笑着静止

我最幸福的事 牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始 直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事 对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起的事 那天和你傻笑着认识 是最幸福的事

partyworld ktv last night with my Buddies.
i sang mostl sad songs, i nearly cried, i shouted with my voice.
but i had fun with you all.
thanks to mika, wf, bw & wj.

and i heard he got drunk last night,
i bet he had alot of fun.
also heard he's leaving tonight already.
our conversation has been really cold.
we dont even sound as friends.
and i somehow felt its drifting far far apart.

maybe its about time to stop myself from reminiscing the past.
its about time to move forward,
slowly one step a time.
goodbye my love.

it has ended. and i wished him all the best for his future.

Be more sensible for the next one.

give her the best. treasure her more.

dont take things for granted anymore.

never raised your hand to the next her too. ever.

give your best shot to keep the next her with you.

but you must remb never to make rush decision again.

becus you never know if she will come back again or not.

you understand?

i may never be back again.

but i'll remb the happiest times you gave.

forget the bad ones, remb the best ones. (:

i loved you once, and i did it many times.

but now, its time to stop.

so now, im healing myself.

healing that little shadow hiding behind my heart.

please do take care and move on for my sake.

take plenty of rest, prepare plenty of energy for your trip.

and if there is always a problem,

i'll try to still be there for you, if you ever need me, someday..

please be strong, dear "C.W"

words spread fast and yes, im all alone again.

thank you friends for caring.

i know i act like im strong but yet you all see that im actually weak.

tears are shedding, and its still shedding now.

but people, im really fine.

just dont remind me anymore. thanks (:

silent nights kills me.

flashbacks are really hurtful too.

another 25 more days to BKK trip with dear Eunice!!! Yeah!! (:

cant wait to fly there.

been cooping up at home for so long.

i feel like a rotten apple soon. haha.

but starting work tomorrow.

im more then excited to start my new job. (:

good luck and work hard J.bibi ~

sometimes.. i do wonder about how to go about and compare.

and finally i found a fruit which i can compare to.

at first, you're a fresh pinky red juicy apple.

the ones that everyone feel tempted to eat you up.

when times slowly goes by,

you turned into a soon rotten apple which lack of fresh color and no longer juicy.

which is being thrown away to aside and died of loneliness.

somehow i felt its a thought comparing my r/s to this apple.

i felt that im being thrown aside.

dont kissed as much, dont held hands even when we're out.

dont even mention making out.

i somehow felt like a rotten apple which is bored of looking at.

and someday i'll just die of loneliness. LOL (just joking abt this)

i only felt a one year r/s can brings out a totally not fresh lives of us.

and im beginning to start thinking..

its only the first year for god sake.

how are we going to go through to the next many years thats coming by?

i dont even wanna think abt "our" marriage anymore, let alone talk abt it.

somehow.. its just not right at all. or maybe i say i dont feel right afterall.

has the feelings tone down? or has the freshness of the r/s being washed down the drain?

i've tried so hard to come to this stage.

and all i've got is this outcome when i've finally reached this stage.

i do really wonder is it worth coming this far?

what am i trying so hard for?

i do think when i've finally felt the coldness there.

i thought i could do something different to make the attention turned to me.

but it just seems like.. i have to entertain myself for all the while?

i no longer understand how it works or how it should goes like.

it just felt so tasteless already.

thinking of all this makes me headache ah.

got to go collect my work bottoms from the tailor later.

and maybe meeting feng out for a talk.

im already suffocating.

being neglecting my blog for some time already.

firstly, i found a job. YEAH!!

secondly, i got in for the job. DOUBLE YEAHS!!

and im going for training today. feeling very excited.

provided the anuties outside very noisy. esp the eat microphone one.

and so i woke up early.
Good Luck to me later..

19th Sept

celebrated weifeng 20th bday that day.

a present from Queens Couture by Eunice, BinWei, Waichun, Zoey & me.

our dear eunice got bird shit bad luck that day. LOL.

and we headed to Turf City for Steamboat.

we ate super alot. esp prawns. LOL

think about it now, i feel like vomitting. hahahaha.

after this, headed to car wash then to Damp to hang out.

chatted and catch up the old times.

theres laughter, shy-ness too. (:

but it was nice catching up.. miss those days.

the next is K singing. Yeah.. (:

22 Sept

catch up with Liu Jing & Hai Xia for some work search.

headed to town to look for Tracy.

and i bought a pair of heels for my work too.

from what i've checked, i have alot colored heels, but no black ones.

and black ones are usually sandals. zzz

had dinner tog after her work off.

looks like she's happy there. (:

we could always catch up during lunch. hehehe.

and im off to do my stuffs before preparing for training. tatas~

And i've quitted my job two days back.

crap place. NB!! work 11am-11pm. KILL people ah?

now at home shake leg for the time being.

relax awhile while sending resumes. (:

Shopping at Town with Tracy darling today.

my camera's dead before i went out.

and i cant find my charger. WTH!!

she said she got pimple too. very big. LOL.

meeting up at far east to fill up my timesheet.

waiting to get my money.

Head to Paragon to dine in at Sushi Tei. (:

Her treat for the day. Next time mine.

shopped for her baby clothes. baby clothes are so cute.

its so tempting that i feel like buying for little Zel.

Tracy bought super lots of stuffs for the day.

baby clothes, skincare from Laneige, shoes from Nine West, Chocs from Royce.

her paper bag even tore. so funny lor.

i bought Vivi Magazine, Chocs from Royce, 2 Tops from Mango.

and those heels killed me at the end of day.

but, im happy for the day with her & the stuffs i've got. (:

meet up soon darling ~~

its time to go home to shift even more of my stuffs back tomorrow.

i miss daddy. i must give him a treat since im so free these days.

and of cus, to meet up with my grandma, bro and sis to recontract lines.

Wednesday meet up Baby sis & little Zel.

Breakfast & company her for the day. So wont be so bored. (:

im off to surfing net now.. GoodNight and Bye.

i have been so lazy to blog these days.
anyway.. here i am, updating past few days outings.

recently:

1.caught Final Destination 4 with tracy darling, her hubby and her friends.
it was a crap show. as always, its predictable.

2.Dine in with AhKun & Eric at HK cafe for dinner/supper.

3.Crappy days at work as usual.

4.Bad stomach cramps caught with me a day ago at work till now. SUCKS!

Today Outing:

finally caught up with my dear cousin, Jason for lunch.
i told him about ah ma and he had tears in his eyes in Swensens!!! OMG.
but i nearly cried myself too. guess the both of us should go pay her a visit soon.
we chatted real lots. the feeling is so good catching up with a relative.
bought a dress too. hehehe.
he's gonna be my shopping partner the next time round too.
adding into my shopping mates list. (:at 5 plus, we parted our ways.
i head to Orchard Central to look for Tracy darling.
Bought her LongJohn for dinner. Helped her iron abit of clothes.
then that DAJIE come. damn it. and she stayed the whole day!!
so i called up BinWei for a movie. since he's bored too. LOL.
while waiting, its shopping trips for me again.
i bought sleepwear and 2pairs of underwear. LOL.
walking the whole level of Orchard Central. its so boring!!!!
so big yet nothing. lucky BinWei came fast.
So caught Blood Ties today.
another crappy show. not very nice. not very scary too. zz

photos of the day:

Cousin Jason and i (:


my shopping treats:



good nights!!

Its a tiring monday. as monday will always be blue to me.

Lucky me i've got no work today. rest rest~
and i slept straight for 12hours. good life eh? LOL
super long didnt sleep like that.
darling tracy birthday coming soon. (:
remind myself gotta sleep early before the night we go out.
and meeting my Cousin soon for a meal out. (: i miss him~


Read thru baby Eunice post last night.
It was really touching abt what she said of Sophia and the rest of us.
Best friends are really like diamonds.
looks fragile so you will hold it tight in your hands making sure it dont fall.
again, they are really really precious.
i dont have alot of gfs comparing to the guys,
but i really appreciate everyone of these ppl in my life.
they are always there for me when im down.
though i always tend to keep my own thoughts in mind,
at least i know whom i'll be able to share my down mood with.
they protect me like im a baby to them.
for the girls..
they laugh with me, share stupid thinkings,
drive me back home though they lived faraway,
talked abt the bad guys that intrude into our lives..
share nice shopping treats with me..
talked thru till i reach home after a late movie..
tell me abt bfs whom done me wrong, helped me thru..
i love them. i really do.
for the guys..
they're willing to spend the night talking shits to me,
companying me for late dinner,
send me back home till i reached my doorstep,
pray hard that i got a job soon tog with me,
nagging abt camp stuffs, having fun tog that i'll never forget,
we quarrel becus of a gf, but after time past, we're back tog as one again.
there are some silly stuffs happening, but still..

Best Friends will always be Best Friends.


Eunice, Weifeng, BinWei, Waichun, Wilfred..
from secondary school till now. they are the most precious one.


Xueli, the girl whom grew up with me tog till now.
share with me abt her flings during past.
tells me the bads that's happening.
i still owe her friend a meal. zzz


the new friends made..
tracy, ivy, meixi..
the noisy ones whom keep talking to me nonstop.
making me laugh till ppl outside looked in.
tell me lame jokes, willing to hear abt stuffs i hate abt my bf.


there are many more.
but!! the most precious one are my family.

Daddy is the best one.
he worked hard for us, treats us like a best friend too.
i love him as much though i dont spend much time with him.
my bros never fails to give me a shoulder massage when i need one,
they are annoying at times but they are always my best listening ear.
my sis & nainai is the best gf i had. though we lived far away from one another,
they will always be reminded by me.
Mummy has never been a good mom to us,
but she still goes thru the pain bringing us out here to life.
as for my piggy bf, he has never being the sweetest,
but he's the one that tells me from right to wrong,
give me tears but holds me tight to him again,
we quarrel for the most nonsensical things but he always try to give in.
he never spends much time with me, but im glad i have him with me.
he knows me well from inside out, i can never hide anything from him.
he's that best friend which i love & hate at the same time.

Baby sister, Constance jie, she always hear me talk my shits abt Clement.
she goes thru my pain when im at my lowest till late.
we got a small trip to bring little Zel to. (:

lastly i love everyone. to those that i mention and did not.
imagine how wonderful this world could be..
and i still keep saying it sucks. LOL.
even so, i'll live my life to the fullest. (:

im thinking of opening a blogshop lor.

should i or should i not?

give me comments on whether should i or not? (:

baby is sleeping soundly now.

guess he's really tired.

i think i wanna take a short nap too.

tatas~

Sunday shopping was great with Buddies, Eunice & BW.

and thats how i ended up broke. thanks alot ah!!

but i had alot of great bargains. LOL.

its alittle messy. but i got myself 3 tops, one shorts, one jumper.
not to forget magazine & curling thing from Sasa.
ate in at Bugis too. i nearly left my phone behind. but lucky me.

Home Sweet Home.



today was one bad sales day.
so... i talk alot shits during work with my colleague. hahaha.
its so crazy that i laugh so loud that ppl outside looked in.
anyway, one more day of work and im off again. (:
tmr will be breakfast at keppel bay again before to work. YEAH!!



good nights.

recent programmes ~

- caught Orphan with dear Tracy darling.
it was so exciting and thrilling.

- working all my way for straight 8 days, which is killing enough for me.
and it made me have the feeling of flying.

- in between the 8 days, caught Gi Joe with Tracy darling again.
It's a great show indeed.

- for today programme, gonna meet up Eunice & Bw for another buddy outing.
sadly, weifeng cant come with us.

and!!! im suppose to be able to go to Korea,
but due to covering christmas, my leave isn't approved!!!
im so sad that i cant keep Eunice baby company. =(

and i've waited till 5am in the morning for someone to be back on a friday night,
and now.. idk. i wanna hide in my blanket.
i wished i never waked up again.
and i wished my tears, please dont come rushing out again.
because of boredom, because i wanna prevent quarrels,
i keep having programmes to entertain me.
and yes, he's asking to let go soon.
maybe soon, i might just go single i think.

HAPPY 1st YEAR 2nd MONTH !!!!!!
and it's still going to keep counting on.
i love you, baby ღ

its my off again today. weee. (:
later meeting dear Eunice for my hair extensions & dye.
i love hair treatments. hehe.
had a very bad nightmare this morning.
its so bloody and disgusting.
but i do remb one name in it.
Shawn Koh i think. who the fxxx is that?
anyway, baby sms woke me up.
so its kinda relived.

wonder when's commission coming. im waiting...~
and its shopping time again.
meeting Eunice & Weifeng soon.
bestfriends will always be there. love.

im going back to my dramas again.
see ya peeps~

shopping definitely kills me.
i've bought 2 items from Ageha japanese webby.
its pretty and cute. (:
love it to bits. hehehe.

i love their hair too. awwwww.
anyway there's work tmr. gotta go to bed.
good nights.

haven't been updating.

1st, im busy at work till late.
2nd, i fall sick for days already ):

anyway..
i think its last thursday that i went out with Buddy Eunice & Feng.
for facial and shopping.
Eunice bought the most.
i only bought lashes from Sasa.
we had a good round in Orchard Central.
and bought nice undies and one sleepwear set. (:
nothing much. only the watch shop caught my eyes.
its all about Bling Bling. haha.
next trip is to Bugis and Steamboat!! Weeee~
im looking forward to it.


and the sickly story of mine.
down with a high fever, sore throat, cough and abit of diarrhea. ):
bad isnt it?
seen doctor 2 times. waste money.
it has been the 4th coming to 5th day already.
and im still not well. hai.
2days not in work already.
i feel bad about it you know.
i miss my Tracy & Ivy JieJie at work lor.

the topic i dont wanna mention..
it leads me to a bigger disappointment.
what is mutual respect? can anyone please explain to me abt it?
what is mutual trust too?
i no longer know all these anymore.
sometimes, my hopes are dashed.
im all shattered & broken.
i gave chances again & again.
but as always, its the same.
maybe, i never care again.
lets see how it goes then.

working at Sheer Romance is great.
feet quite tiring one.
but so far, colleagues and crowd there are good.
time passes fast too. (:
the only thing is need to remb prices.
quite troublesome. zzzz

its FEP that im working at.
so i'm spending while working too.
shit right? $$ fly away. damn. got to control it.

anyway, i'll be staying permanently at Baby's place for the time being.
and yes, he's really excited about it.
pray hard we dont go any wrong "again".
slowly, im gonna shift things in.
my shoes, clothes. think abt it now, its alot. ^.^"'

facial soon with dear Eunice.
and dear buddies, im really shifting out of woodlands. ):
but still will meet up k? :) love buddies.

Went shopping at town with Baby & Mika.

Sweet Mika came and drove us to town. (:

The new LV shop in ION is beautiful man.
bought only two tees in fareast. ):
and one of it became a rugged cloth now.
due to color mixture. Fxxk it!! ):
lucky its a budget spree. haha.

Finally, im starting work tomorrow. (:
its real long hours.
for the sake of money, Work Hard Jessica!!
All the best to me.


and its always love that makes me smile

DOUBLE YEAHS TO ME!!!!!!!!!!1
i've called and checked about one job.
and...... *drum rolls*

The lady asked me to go for training on Saturday.
then if training goes well,
i can start work immediately.
although its not related to beauty.
but its a swim wear shop.
and the pay is quite okie. =)
so, good for me.

thanks to the god whom hears me while im praying to it just now. :)

because i dont feel good at all..
):

Sent in two resumes currently ytd.

wish me luck getting in either one.
of cause, im not giving up yet.
still gotta try my best in searching for job.
加油 to JessicaBibi !! (:


Movie caught:
baby is so noisy after movie.
has always been. haha.
but he's cute in some ways.
LOVE.

Eunice Birthday @ Mono

had our hair done up in City Plaza before heading to mono.
Eunice & i are the first to reach.
And one thing bad. My heel split open due to long time never wear.
i end up walking around without my heels on.


The group of Girls

Buddy Feng & Eunice

Feng & Me

Happy Birthday to our lovable Eunice

Cheryl with her start of bidding
And.. I won the bid with 一万 !!
Eunice with her 谢词 -.- thanking her parents & all.

Eunice & Ts , Loving

i don't remb this part. but sure is hilarious.

there are many memorable happenings too.
we all got high & crazy that's why.
we all don't wish to remb & talk about the bad happenings again.
but dear Eunice, Happy 20th Birthday to you.
i've had my fun with all of you.
the next will be me (:

went to work as usual today.

ended early and met up with buddies, E & F
and yes, our shopping meet ups.
like finally after sometime ago. ^-^

we shopped till our legs drop dead.
feeling hungry at the same time.
talking & laughing non-stop.
it's always fun being with them.
dine at Fish & Co. Yummy dinner that filled our stomach.

many pictures taken, but will upload only a few.

The CamWhore sessions:




i had fun with the both of you.
looking forward to E's birthday party this coming weekend.
lovable buddies see you there. ^^

lastly, its me. Good Night.

i want a teacup yorkie puppy so badly.

but wait till i end this stupid job first.
so i've got more time for the little puppy.
a belated happy birthday for dear Bin Wei, though i wished you already.

7th June 09

A Happy 1st Year Anniversary to dear Baby & Me.
Even though there are quarrels most of the time,
we will still gonna overcome it isn't it?
im still looking forward to the next year with you. LOVE (:

Movies Caught Recently



A treat from Baby & i, to Baby's parents & sister last night at HK cafe.
got a little bad feeling cause baby's mom didn't ate full. ewww.
maybe the next time round.
hmmm. gonna have steamboat at work later. Double Yeahs!!
im going to go help out for the steamboat lunch later. (:
Sunday shopping with Dear Eunice & Weifeng Bud.
LoveLove.

and finally i sent the email to my ladyboss earlier in the afternoon.
she replied by calling me. which gave me a shock.
but after the shock, but its such a relieve after that.
and she says she will look into the matter.
and now i'm searching for new beauty counter jobs.
more towards sales. can earn much more then my current job lor.
which really sucks lah, have to admit. LOL
so ladies, if you're working in skincare line, please let me know. =)

hmmm.. thinking back awhile ago.
i missed alot of my fun times during weekends.
off to drinking & happily clubbing.
how i wished i could find more girls to enjoy weekends & off days tog.
ewwwww.

current mask process is done. finally.
and soon its off to bed soon. yawns ~
nighty.

finally the month of May is gone.
here comes month of June.
still waiting for pay to come. hoping they don't delay.
i need shopping badly.
not to forget my best partners, Eunice & Feng ♥♥
looking forward to dear Eunice b'day party.
i bet she hopes for the day to come fast too.
hahaha. soon the June babies of Eunice & Binwei is turning 20.
that's really fast. meanwhile, i'll enjoy my 19th youth to the max. (:
and 1st year anniversary with my dear boy is coming soon. =)

stuffs about the other day...

caught Night at the museum 2 with fat baby.
he seriously need to slim down alot. really.
everything keeps going in that mouth of his. tsktsk.

finally its off day again.

6 days more to pay day. (:
meet up with dear eunice for facial and shopping today.
budget shopping you hear me? LOL
im near to broke already lah.
next month worse. birthdays to attend, 1st year to celebrate.
all money money. #@&#^# hell. hahahaha.
shopping was great with eunice.
weifeng met up with us awhile and left after that.
its been a long time since i last seen him.
bought nothing much.
a present for little zelene, a pair of heels & a dress.
there's nothing much to buy.
but got tons of pictures. will upload soon after editing. (:
im off to bed soon. LOVE.

just a review..

sometimes i wish it was on some weekdays and some weekends.
i dont know if its me whom cant be contented,
or is it you or maybe just us?
sometimes i feel so confused.
i just really hope some answers will pop out right infront of me.
saves me from thinking and spinning.
they say can see that i really love you.
yea. they are right. but can you see that?
there are thousands of questions. but i can never finish asking it.
nah. who cares. love supposed to be complicated isn't it?
but the only thing i've just realized,
im not the happiest girl in the world.
sometimes, i wished.. i just wished i could let go of everything.
i just hope you will look me once in silence telling me you love me so too.

didnt report to work today.
have to use my sunday off to cover today. NB
all thanks to my stupid ankle. ):
got a sprain for nothing.
and i didnt even feel anything from the start till yesterday.
woke up with a sharp pain on my ankle.
hacking care, thought its just nothing..
went shopping & catch a movie with baby at Tampines.
caught X-men, bought a scarf and a shoe bag for bro birthday present.
headed home with baby after that.
the pain gets worse at night so baby decided to bring me to the doc if today still like that.
and who knows, this morning, i cant even stand properly!!
not even stand still. i cant even really drag my feet like yesterday.
): thats how i ended up not reporting to work.
im trying very best to go to work tomorrow.
unless the pain gets worse. i cant help.

seeing the chinese doctor just now really made baby laughed badly.
because i cant stand the pain and i ended up crying when the doctor just touched my leg only.
baby said im a PUSSY!!!!! cant even stand that little pain.
yet i can stand my tattoo pain. i am really crazy. haha.
everyone laughed when i started crying. haha.
they say lucky never put needle, or else i'll scream my head off. LOL
but thanks baby for being there to hold my hand tightly thru out,
and holding my hand up the cab,
and of cus piggy back me up and down the stairs till we get home. (:
Love him the best though he's nonsense to me sometimes. haha.

so im off to rest now.

im breaking down soon man!!
continuous working for 8 days kills me.
i nearly dont want turn up for work lor.
but finally off day is tomorrow.
and im meeting dear eunice for hair dye and extension.
i simply cant resist long hair.
i miss my long hair. not regretting that i cut my hair short.
but i want my long hair back. ewww. (: LOL
trying to take a PH off for baby to go shopping tog too.
and soon im going to bed.
im so dead tired lah. nighty.

back to work in again.
commission still sucks.
i bet my pay for this month sucks too. LOL
but im still looking forward to my payday.
but its time to save, save & save.
will be spending on...
body art, hair extending, body care.
ohh.. not to forget my pretty Eunice too.
we will be off to having facials and hair treatments done tog.
then the gathering of my secondary school mates BBQ.
this one gonna be a fun one. no more restrictions.
all over 18 already. hahaha.

and abt the body art..
why care abt marriage? i still can flaunt my pretty back by then.
who cares what ppl think of me.
at least im myself and im happy by then. (=

its time to be off showering. time to meet baby.
love.

when i was told to love you,

you smashed all my hopes.

when i knew i could put at ease loving you,

i know something bounds to happen.

and you told me, "Im sorry for letting you cry"

i got a little soft but can i still put at ease loving you?

i really dont know.

you meant everything to me.

but im not going to follow the exact footsteps behind you again.

this is what i know.

but still, baby.. i love you.

ah ma passed away already.

sad for her. but at the same time..

i wished she go peacefully.

only family knows why we wished her to go soon.

it will be a heartpain for her even if she stays.

when tears are filled, pain comes in next.

will you ever stay true? i dont know.

i would wished i never knew you at all.

was it a mistake that i made?

you dont look thru our pictures.

but you look thru "their" pictures.

maybe im sensitive. maybe i am.

will we last? im really puzzled now.

i leave our footsteps to that.

not wanting to count any more footsteps.

i'll just let it fly when the wind comes.

i seriously need a shoulder now.

have been hanging out with dear eunice and bin wei these days.
i've got nothing better to do. kill time only lor.
baby cousin passed away. feels abit wasted. he's only 21.
missed baby much too.
work sucks. not much commission coming in yet.
they said wanna transfer me to Shangri-la for training and work.
to help out, as they need help there.
advantage is i get to earn more commission as there will be alot of hotel guests.
disadvantage, its far lah. orchard you know.
i dont even know how to get there. ppl there are as kind? i dont know. really.
but they should give me my transport fee at the very least.
i've got no choice, i think.
going out to meet up with baby soon.
and tonight he's gonna dota with eunice. kill me please.
if only lappy was here. i can watch my hk dramas. ewww.
and a Happy 10th Month to dearest baby love.


sometimes love seems far even when you're here.
the heart still feels lonely at bad times.
someday, i wished you know how i really feel.

and yes. im sick again. down with this really bad headache.
its killing inside my whole skull i think. LOL
off to see the doctor in awhile.
anyway, first day of work is nothing like usual.
but glad that i went to work yesterday and MC for today.
sucks lah me. ohh. and..
many thanks to baby for buying me 2 tops yesterday.
love him to bits. now we've got 3 same tops. LOL


and yes. how could i forget. the shopping trip last saturday.
shopping was boring. but with them around, they made me laugh alot.
baby bought a pair of shoe.. again. and i bought the Fancl Tense Up EX.
its my 4th time drinking it. tasty. (:
the 4 of us caught the movie 12 Rounds that day too.
its a must watch. very exciting for me. haha.
i got to go. byebye.

feeling pain & aches when i woke up in the morning yesterday.

feeling like the fever symptom is here.

like weak in the whole body.

i felt its my own fault, cus i slept really really late the past few days.

and when evening came, when chatting with eunice,

i took temperature and baby says i got slight fever ler.

so rest instead. didnt ate much though.

it was tough going thru the night.

it was really really cold. i had alot of dreams.

my body is stiff like dont know what.

i felt pain all over man. its killing me.

i woke up like every hour lor. which is very killing for me ):

when baby woke up in the morning, he touch my body.

i guess he felt its super hot.

i cant feel anything. seriously. only feeling cold.

so when he ask am i having a fever still, i say dont know.

took once more temp. 39.1 degrees!!!!

rest till i woke up. no more fever.

but that bad feeling of the fever coming back still lingers on. fuck man!!

wish me get well soon. LOVE.

last minute meet up with dear Eunice.

had dinner at pasta mania.

caught a movie too.

the movie is so funny.

should catch it lah.

CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC

after that, went back home get PSP for baby.

and im HOME SWEET HOME.

now enjoying my mask. wohooo.

looking forward for tomorrow shopping.

nights everyone.

tmr shopping with gwen, her bf & mine.

i hope mine dont come out pattern.

otherwise, i'll be really pissed. zz

been reading forums lately again..

and msn-ing. bi went back to his dota-ing again.

hate it, but have to bear with it.

using forums to keep me company lor.

lucky got bi sister to keep me company these few nights.

talking abt my rs with bi & forums topics. hahaha

think the both of us really got nothing better to do.

usually at night.

dont sleep nothing to do.. its thinking abt nonsensical stuffs again.

so i gotta keep myself occupied.

so fast.. im starting work soon. nevermind.

working is good. got $$

got $$ means can shop even more!!! (:

gotta go for medical check ups for work. sian. hate the long queues one leh.

and the long wait for the report. arghhh.

thinking back.. i've been with baby for 9months already.

3 more months to our 1st year.

abt 5 more months to him going away to australia for abt 3mths ):

yes. tell myself.. im gonna wait for him patiently.

keep myself occupied with work, shopping and life.

im going to enjoy my life to the fullest this 3 months when he is away.

hahaha. (:

LOVE, Jessica

been thinking.. should i?

should i do my full back?

its still so tempting to me. ewww!!

trying to get baby permission now.

i hope he agrees to it. (:

watching tv, doing exercise, and surfing net today.

im trying hard to lose those cellulites i have now.

so good luck to me. (: lovelove.

yesterday wasnt spent waiting endlessly for darling.

went over to bi sister place to take care of little zelene.

as she got to teach piano lessons later on.

we spent like..

watching barney, do coloring, and playing alphabets cards.

when bi sister played the piano,

a feeling suddenly came to me.

touching feeling. so touching that i feel like tears coming out of me.

LOL. but she played very well lah.
little zelene got alot of talents too.

she can color well. unlike other 2 years old kid.

she scribbles all. but, some parts she colored well.

i spent alomost my whole day there.

having dinner and chatting to bi sister when she's free. (:

till 9pm, its Home Sweet Home.

♥

went out shopping with bi last evening.

he bought himself a pair of shoes, money-clip wallet

and we bought a Barney soft toy for cute little Zelene.

then caught a movie right after. a little way too late then other people to catch this.

our first 3D movie together.

he promised to company me for another shopping.

but thought about it over for quite some time.

actually what bi said was right.

i shouldnt keep spending money on so many stuffs i dont really need.

especially when the economy is down.

i should save more instead. but..
shopping keeps me alive leh. z

perhaps spending a little lesser instead? (:

later after dinner catching another movie.

love (:

while waiting for my show to load,

lets do some update.

early morning woke up tog with my pig.

went out tog, drop him off to report back for duty.

i head home straight afterwards.

wanted to sleep more, but dont seems to be able to.

so, start off with my big house cleaning.

starting from my room..

cleared the bags that i didnt want anymore,

rearranged my wardrobe,

hanging all clothes where it should be and clearing unwanted clothes,

changed my bedsheets, vacumm the floor.

then hours later, sis and her maid arrived.

they start off with the wiping of windows,

im stuck with my drawers full of stuffs!!

placing the boxes in order, throwing away alot of stuffs,

rearranging my skincare, purfumes & makeup

kill me please. i've got alot of stuffs and i end up throwing alot.

until i've packed then i realised i've got alot of necklace.

bi called in the middle of my packing,

and he said he dont have to buy me any necklace since i've got alot. z

cleaning my room was one tough job.

the amount of magazines i have,

its everywhere. my wardrobe space, dad's room, living room, bro room.

everywhere you go, you see them.

and i can only resort to one last method,

pack them all up, sell to karang guni. no choice. ):

packing, cleaning and placing back is easy job.

im still imagining when i shift house..

how many boxes will be able to contain all my stuffs.

my clothes i think, give me 2 boxes also not enough.

*dont scare myself* when time comes then say. -.-''

from 8am start, only finished at 7plus evening cleaning & clearing the whole house.

the word for me today, "THROW!!"

award myself with a full body scrub for all the hard work today.

thanks to my 3 siblings and the maid, DanDan Jie (: love

im missing baby right now. shall see him in the morning.

im back to my show then off to bed. bye.

all thanks to Gwen.

im currently attached to http://www.mysoju.com/ for the addict.

cus i got the addiction for Hong Kong dramas.

especially Forensics and law shows.

current show watching,

Forensic Heroes 2

im gone.

Miss Red visited me again today.

Once again, giving me pains and numbness. Damn it.

i was suppose to go back school get something today.

but i woke up feeling blur and something wrong.

until i saw my draft. then i remb. zz

no one remind me abt it. haha.

later gotta go back EV to fill up some application form thing.

looks like, mine is a 6 days week. 10-7 as usual.

17th March 09

had bbq sessions at Jasmine meimei place last night.

food sucks at first. later on, it gets better.

alot of kids(meimei friends) LOL.

they had their game session. splashing water bombs.

i think my last bbq session were my class bbq.

overall, slightly fun but abit bored.

went home at 10pm after that.

16th March 09

went back to EV for some visiting. 2 new IA students.

from my course april batch.

seeing them learn makes me think back of the 3 of us.

when we first started. LOL

anyway, after that, went shopping with Gwen, her BF and me

eli was sick. so she cant come.

she missed all the fun man! LOL

we had fun buying alot of stuffs.

i always end my shopping never empty handed.

brought:

a pair of pretty heels.

2 jacket, gwen got one same as mine, 5pairs of panties

a pair of 3/4 berms, 2 hairbands, 2 belts, 6 nail polish

haha ♥♥

next time shop again Gwen!!

gotta go now. bye.

yes yes. my blog is rotting soon.

i dont have the mood to blog these days lah.

more of rotting around whenever i can.

which i am now. LOL

attachment ended 6 days ago. waiting for april to come.

and then, that sick feeling i have past few weeks ago,

is finally happening. i woke up with a bad dry throat feeling.

then, down with a bad cough. seriously my voice now is like super man!!

dont call and talk to me unless its really urgent.

have been trying different medicine these few days.

better hope it works. so i can save up seeing the doctor maybe tmr?

i need to get well in order to go shopping with gwen on Monday..

shopping is like so important currently you know. i need to get new shoes.

which i just bought a few bras and 2 bags online. zz

you can imagine and see that the bad economy isnt affecting me.

the people should thank me for still shopping-ing. LOL

GET WELL SOON!! (to myself)

had been a busy week for me.

the sudden rushing of projects and completion of presentation slides.
teachers wants it fast. its killing us.
but lucky we decide to start early.
until yesterday, had a relaxing shopping day with bi.
he sure bought more then me. LOL.
quarelled as soon as we reach our destination.
but fine after awhile. tiring day indeed.
chatted with bi and his mum awhile. then head off to bed.

a few more days later, im ending my attachment. :)
means a long holiday for me for the time being.
seriously i need to relax and chill awhile.
then april officially start work. its earning money time.
rainy seasons this time. good to sleep in.
and im missing my darling bi. but im going to sleep soon.

nights. love.

okay. im back for some updates. a wordy one.

its work, work and work.
hardly tog with baby. he keep on sailing.
i keep on working. but we try to make time to be tog. LOL
finally tmr off day ler. (:
hoping our plan goes well for tmr.
tmr morning, wake up meet up with baby for breakfast after he booked out.
then, home sweet home with him, and continue sleep again. haha.
we need to gain back our energy.
if we manage to wake up in the evening, out we go.
shopping & dinner tog.
has been sometime since we last went out to shop.

and im trying hard to do online shopping.
but the damn thing is.. i cant see any pictures on the blogshops.
how to spend money to buy clothes!!
save up better bah. haha.

one more good news.
im continuing to work at EssenceVale Spa after attachment.
can learn & earn money at the same time.why not?
1 week 3 days off, kind of slack, got commission if have lots of customer.
got nice colleagues too.
but baby is complaining cus its far for him to come pick me.
it sound abit upsetting for him to do that.
but i tell him alot of shits to convince him of my future & all. LOL
Love him to bits for listening to me.

i got the urge to go travelling tog with baby lah.
wait for him to end his NS, we save money tog, go have a fun holiday tog.
Singapore is so boring. go anywhere also about the same. zz
im off to shower and to bed.
gotta wake up super early. i've got some pictures to upload.
but another day perhaps. love.

7th feb 09

HAPPY 8TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY to baby & me.


end work, slacked & talked to eli.
met up with bin wei & eunice outside causeway.
headed to eunice place then to bin wei.
learn to play mahjong. (:
then poker & then Mac for supper till early morning.


Eunice & me

baby called me so suddenly at 1am when im playing my game.
and he's back from sailing. i miss him so much man.
he wanted me to stay over after that.
cabbed to Changi Naval Base to pick him & his friend up.
headed back to pasir ris.
HOME SWEET HOME at 6am or so.
showered & off to bed at 7am.
been really a long time since i last slept that 'early'.

yesterday, slept thru till 3plus pm woke up.
and im still in his arms tight. *sweet*
actually wanna go out and stock up my skincare.
but all baby's fault. just joking.
cus his family having steamboat dinner tog.
maybe tmr then stock up after work or so.
and Valentine's coming.
i've got to work. that sucks.

firstly,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

and i have to work through my CNY. sad case.
but at least got customer lah.
did many ear candling for baby cousins & aunt.
its time to let my family try my skills too :)
and here are some pictures updates during the CNY dinner with EV ppl.






and previously few days ago, did shiseido mask with baby.
thanks to baby sis for the mask.
its good man. very pore tightening & clean feeling.
but bad thing is, its a peel off mask. pain. LOL
please dont mind the below picture. LOL



lovelove. angbaos collected too. (: