for this time, i know i did wrong. im sorry.
i cried hard. you saw it.
but you cried thrice, it tears me apart to see it.

for the doings, im sorry.
please stay will you? i know i want to.
till finally i realise these tears meant so much.
so much that i know, i dont wanna lose you anymore.
just you. stay will you?
i promise i never do it anymore.

the moment when i packed up, you're still sitting there,
and at that point of time,
that moment you asked me leave,
im totally shattered.
i lose control. you saw it too.
yet you smile & acted calmly like you think you should.
you're still clicking away, like nothing happened.
and when i pull the chair aside,
i know i wanna make you stay.
i hugged you tightly then i broke down into tears.
i cried so long. and i heard you crying too. that was the first time i hear you cry.
im sorry for the tears shed. i never wanted it this way.
i know its hard for you to trust again.
the chance that you given, i'll keep it safely.
never to lose it again.
now i have to start all over again.
and i promise, the outcome, it will be worth the wait.
dont treat me like a stranger. i need your shoulder.
you said you gonna company me to somewhere quiet.
i'll wait for the weekend.
till today morning, my tears are still shedding.
now my eyes swollen like goldfish.
my head hurts, and im running a slight fever.
yet i didnt tell you. afraid you will be worried.
but if you come in & read here, i know i will get a scolding from you.
for many words still left unsaid, please refer to our book k?

fat boy.. i want you, & need you here by my side.