I'm just back from meeting Mika love, Yiksian & K.L

Tired can ~ Luckily im off tomorrow.

Or else i sure cannot take it again. Hehehe.

I've been sleeping so late lately.

Think my body system is going to be down very soon.

1st, i need to get back my beauty sleep.

2nd, i need to adjust my body clock.

3rd, i need to have a very good long body massage.

The 3rd one is going to be complete by later at 2pm.

Appointment booked. Thanks to my dear Murni. (:

Yeah.. Massage like finally lor.

I seriously need to relieve my aching body.

And yes, Birthday coming soon. Im so excited can.

Wohooooooo ~

Tracy wifey going to give me a big surprise.

Buddies are all going to be there for me too. DOUBLE YEAH!!!

BrowHaus, should i go to do my eyelash?

I think maybe eyebrow better. (:

Many thanks to dear Mika, whom console me earlier on before she head out.

Also thanks to my dear buddies,

Bin wei, Wilfred & Wei Jie for making me smile after sometime.

They are the best buddies still ~

Im dont want it to happen this way.

But yes, im still suffering.

Hopefully i can walk thru myself on this long journey.

Im walking towards the exit ain't i?

When i know everything has broken into pieces,

even my new kitty mouse right side wing had broken into pieces,

i just sat there and cry by myself.

Seriously i dont know why but i still feel sad.

It really do marks the end of everything isn't it?

I can't bring anything back, neither do i want to anymore.

I really don't wish i end up in depression.

If my dear Mika can walk out thru all this pain,

so can i, right? Im strong i know. (:

For birthday celebration, i've booked everything.

The rest left are the invitations confirmation and im done ~

Does treating me like this satisfy you alot? :(

After sometime, i finally update blog.

Clockwise Left to Right: YuanZhi Body Wash, Blu Marquis Candela,

Pine Leg Soother, Hair HydraMasque, Eucalyptus & Ginger BodyScrub

Today's Pampering for myself : BODY SCRUB!!!!
Loveeeeeeeee~

Next pampering treat will be my hairmasque. (:

Finally had my haircut today.

my hair ends are so dry that it needs some trimming.

and now my fringe is short that i find it abit irritating. LOL

the other day at work,

ate with my dear partner Murni in the canteen.

a plate of rice which is super cheap can..

and a box of cakes.

Isn't it delicious? And the two of us finish everything.
seriously i think there is something wrong with me.

i've been eating alot these days can!!!! definitely not pregnant of cus. (:

Im off to watch my drama ~

After 2 busy busy days, im finally off for 2 days. tired ~

Boxes of stocks, returns & even price tags are killing me.

thanks to tracy wife for helping me. (:

My day spent :

Slacking in eunice office for hours.

Sleeping & printing photos in her office. LOL

Head to Ikea in Tampines straight after that.

Already very long never take long distance bus rides.

Bought home alot of loots ~

Cheap and nice & alot too. (:

My loots for the day:

1. A coffee table to put laptop & table light on top

2. Photo Frames (films alike design)

3. Black table light

4. Two bathing towels

Head over to his place to collect the rest of my stuffs.

when i saw little zel, i hugged her so tightly.

its been long since i last saw her.

after taking everything, talked to his mother.

after i left, Constance Jie told me his mom cried again. :(

im so very upset can. Before i left, i feel like hugging his mom.

But in order not to let her cry, i never did so. :(

didn't expect so many things to happen in one night.

But Constance Jie says i looked more happy now. hahahhaa.

and yes i am. im really happy of my life now.

off to bed soooooonn ~

this few days either its work or meeting friends.

slacking with best friends tog brings back memories.

many memories and jokes.

wilfred is so very funny just now.

he even played guitar inside 7-11 for me & the cashier lady.

i just cant stop laughing. LOL !!

and its off again for my coming morning. (:

sleeping in till late. chatting on the phone with friends.

it has never been that good.

at the least im leading a happy life right now.

ever since i came back from BKK.

the next coming up... ~

Genting trip with BFF's !!! YEAH !!!

its gonna be a fun one this time round at genting. (:

BKK TRIPP IS LOVEEEEEE!!!!!

Im back from BKK trip.
4days ago, we are so excited about our trip.
one blink of an eye, our 3days 2nights trip has ended. ):
before that, we told each other we are leaving the sad world with broken hearts.
and now, we dont even feel like coming back.
though it really heals our heart.
at the very least during these days, i clearly can see what i really want already.


We had extreme fun there. didnt get the chance to eat A&W though.
its shopping for one whole day.
that is what i called life. hahaha.
everything is cheap like dont know what. even cab fares are cheap like crazy.
we will proceed on with many photos to let them speak for me.
some photos are still on the process to uploading.
please be patient.
i'll just put a link to my facebook. (:

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Finally i've received my contact lenses!!!!

hehehehe~

been days since i last update my blog.

i've been trying to stand up on my own and with the help from my dear friends.

and when im standing up, he came and push me again.

thats when i fell really hard last night.

and yes.. i cried again. but i've decided my decision already.

i decided to give up totally this rs. be friends or not, let him decide that.

because the words are so hurtful, the yellings are painful too.

but i bear with it. i hold on strong trying to yell back & showed attitude as well.

and, i did it. i dont feel good at all.

but im gald i made up this decision with the help of Constance Jie.

even though he & i ended, you are still like a sister to me.

not forgetting dear Eunice & Weifeng hanging out at Yishun Damp.

chattings, songs changing, joking about.

im gald i have you two during my lowest point of time.

also never forgetting Ah hao & Tracy darling & her hubby.

for always being here entertaining my life.

Darling, you know what im waiting for.

and you see that im standing strong now too.

all because i wanted a better life. to move on smoothly.


the last but not least, i just wanna say goodbye to you Clement.
for the last, i'll call you this way.
baby, you have been the best during our happy days.
we gave each other a choice to move on and to give up this rs.
it has been a good past and i know i'll remember you forever.
be it the laughter's or the tears we shared.
its all over now. do lead your life well.
look after your family well too. do give a hand to your parents if they need you.
they aren't young anymore if you do realize that.
its time to grow up for you.
be a more sensible big boy. think for your own better future.
love yourself more. don't go back to what you did in the past before me.
the whole world is not about alcohol & girls only.
if someday you came to understand why i say all this,
its for your own good.
whether or not have i changed you during the past 1year4months, i dont know.
but i know we go thru alot but still ended this way is not what we really want.
and the song at the bottom is for you.
take good care & goodbye, love.

<<最幸福的事>>
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你撑着雨伞 借我那次
已经足够我 记得一辈子
我懂後来你 不是不坚持
爱情本来就 没万无一失

泪水离开了 你的手指
那不如让它 流在这信纸
我想女孩子 最贴心的是
让爱的人选 结束的方式

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事


可惜爱不是 童话故事
不能够永远 依赖着王子
才慢慢认识 只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心 为难你解释

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你 美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕 都微笑着静止

我最幸福的事 牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始 直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事 对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起的事 那天和你傻笑着认识 是最幸福的事

partyworld ktv last night with my Buddies.
i sang mostl sad songs, i nearly cried, i shouted with my voice.
but i had fun with you all.
thanks to mika, wf, bw & wj.

and i heard he got drunk last night,
i bet he had alot of fun.
also heard he's leaving tonight already.
our conversation has been really cold.
we dont even sound as friends.
and i somehow felt its drifting far far apart.

maybe its about time to stop myself from reminiscing the past.
its about time to move forward,
slowly one step a time.
goodbye my love.

it has ended. and i wished him all the best for his future.

Be more sensible for the next one.

give her the best. treasure her more.

dont take things for granted anymore.

never raised your hand to the next her too. ever.

give your best shot to keep the next her with you.

but you must remb never to make rush decision again.

becus you never know if she will come back again or not.

you understand?

i may never be back again.

but i'll remb the happiest times you gave.

forget the bad ones, remb the best ones. (:

i loved you once, and i did it many times.

but now, its time to stop.

so now, im healing myself.

healing that little shadow hiding behind my heart.

please do take care and move on for my sake.

take plenty of rest, prepare plenty of energy for your trip.

and if there is always a problem,

i'll try to still be there for you, if you ever need me, someday..

please be strong, dear "C.W"

words spread fast and yes, im all alone again.

thank you friends for caring.

i know i act like im strong but yet you all see that im actually weak.

tears are shedding, and its still shedding now.

but people, im really fine.

just dont remind me anymore. thanks (:

silent nights kills me.

flashbacks are really hurtful too.